This year was challenging to describe it as best as I can (2017). There were many ups and a few downs. It's close to the end of 2017 as I look forward to 2018. I'm a bit sad today... it's been 4 years since I've lost dad. I feel as though I failed him. I feel as though fibrosis won the battle and I'm reminded how vicious the disease is as I'm also learning that my uncle not blood related has a similar pulmonary issue that involved honeycombing (honeycombing being an unfortunate sign). It's hard to think about his future and it's just a reminder as I said, of what I saw my father go through. Depending on God's love and mercy to show His power beyond what I could ever imagine (yet still I have to be careful that my faith will not be broken). I want to let you guys know how I feel but I'm afraid to write. I've written so much before but I am afraid that writing will be a sense of bad luck - though I'm hoping it isn't. If it doesn't seem that way then look out for more posts. I'm not going to write anymore on Facebook. I'll write it here as long as God spares life - really and truly, it's all up to God at this point. I wish you all a Happy New Year and God's richest blessings upon your life. You can always get in touch with me via [email protected] . I'd love to hear from you! Happy New Year 2018!